Hello guys! It's been awhile since I write here. Kinda miss the old good times writing here and stay connect with people who I'd followed and who's following me back. It's been 3 years now is it? Well yup, but now I'm back for goods. Just want to kill my time and fill my day again by writing my daily basic programme. Eventhough, it's not that great. Haha :) There's a lot of things happened on my plate for this past 3 years. Of course, UPs and DOWNs. We all have been through it. Everytime, Everyday, Every month and years. Can't say NO to it, whatever happens. It teach us how to grow up and how deal with it. That's life, it treat us good and bad. But we are still here, playing along with the games of life.
By the way, this is me now. Taking about a week ago. Looks different of course but still FAT! 75Kg and 22 years old. Like what the fuck already? But still happy manage to lose some weight. Hahaha. Damn I'm feel so old and so fat! But anyway, I'm fine. Alhamdulillah sihat walafiat :) Belum ada penyakit lagi, hopefully :) Amin. Life is great, some of them. Heartbroken of course, every year. Haha. On my way getting my driving license this March, like finally! Currently working as an accountant. Earning not that much but syukur Alhamdulillah I still can spoil myself with shopping and good foods. Trying to cut myself from smoking and drinking. Indeed of healthy life because I can't say I'm 100% healthy. My life is treating me well these past few month. Recovering from the breaks up I had last 2 year. Thank God I found someone who worth to love but hard to see. Which is equally the same thing. HAHA! But I'm not giving up on him. He's worth to wait :)
Gossip Girls.. XOXO
This is my precious gifts. My own family who I can call them my bestfriend. They're my real friends, the others are just people I socialize with. The only place I can call home other than mine is their place. I just can't wait to see them on Chinese New Year. Been busy working so I don't have enough time to spend with them. But since I'm on leaves for 2 week then hell yeah! I miss them so much! Everyone is on their way to be successful in their life. Can't see them like I used to before. Everyone moves to different country real quick this year. I wish I get job opportunity somewhere else later on so that they're gonna miss me like what I do to them. I hope everything going well as I planned about my future. Amin ya Allah :)
*My Kingdom Come*
This is the only guy that I want to ended up with now. Met him on November 2014. Still new but I felt I knew him like forever now. You can say that we have a lot of things in common. Maybe not that much but still, he reminds me of myself. He's not so called a boyfriend of mine anymore. But I do wish in future. Distance what keep us apart and my behaviour. I don't usually feel this kind of feeling that I have now when I'm talking or meet another guy but when I'm with him, KHALAS! Only God knows. Even me myself can't explain it. The only things I can describe x like about him is His smile, His laugh, His smart brain, His sweetness, His kindness and etc. Too much to write but I do love all about him. Even sometimes he can be such an ass or a jerk. But there's always another way for both of us to speak again. He's worth to wait that's all I can say. He such a heartbreaker really. I don't know how I can fall in this game. Even I know deep down it's hard to win his heart again but I still trying and don't give up on him. There's a voice inside my head whispering that he had something that I can't have and leading me to try to keep him. But whatever happen, I'll take that as a lesson. I have tons of plan for him I wish I don't ruin it again. I was so close to win but then shit happened. Enough said, looks like we are not gonna getting along for quiet sometime starting tomorrow. Just got scolded by him and I swear I'll never talk again unless he speak to me first :'( But it's okay, I'm gonna get my shit together and gonna find you when I'm ready to move. Love you, Kowshik. tsk
