Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Falling in Love with Someone You Can’t Have

Falling in love is the best feeling in this world. I know many of you think that love hurts a lot, partners are not trustworthy, they don’t understand your feelings or only you love them they don’t. If you feel all these negative things then please read this each and every word of it, with a practical approach. I am sure, it will help you a lot to enjoy your love rather than regretting it. This is one of the worse things that can happen to anyonefalling in love with someone you can’t have. The most challenging phase of love is when you fall in love with someone, whom you can’t get or not even think of getting him/her in your life. It hurts sometimes, and you even feel very painful when you miss that person. Loving someone is not in your control, it’s just a feeling and tough to get over it. Now, it’s up to you that how you take this love in your life, with a positive approach or negative approach? Having a negative approach has kept on crying for that person, who don’t take you more than a friend and not even notice your tears. Another approach is to take the feeling positively and enjoy the moment to the fullest.
How to be in love when another person when another person don’t love you back:
  • Think in a positive way:
If you think that providing tips is very easy and applying them is very difficult than just for five days try to apply these tips with a positive approach. No tips can make your life better unless you want it to be better. If you will keep sympathy with yourself and expecting same with others, you won’t able to enjoy the feeling of true love.
  • Expectations:
True Love is always unconditional, then why you start expecting that the person should love you back?
If you are expecting to return the love back as much as you love him/her then it’s not true love. Why can’t you just love that person? Love is neither a business nor a give and takes relationship. How you can think of love when you have so many expectations. Even if he/she doesn’t reply to your text messages, emails or phone calls, why you get hurt? You want to convey your feelings, and you did that. Don’t ever expect that the person will respond it back otherwise it will hurt you for sure.
  • Don’t force them to love you:
The main reason for not getting the person you love is that they don't love you or might be committed to someone else. Think once from his/her point of view, you might not be the one he/she is looking for. Everyone has their choice and they have all rights to choose the one they find interesting and loving to them. You can never force anyone to fall in love with you. The day you will stop crying for your love, you will start enjoying it. But yes, the best advice would move on. Life is short and there is no point in waiting and falling in love with someone you can't have. Instead, find someone special who completes you.

Tuesday, April 07, 2015

Kiss Goodnight

Last night was fun.. Didn't expect having a date with Jeevs can be this fun. Even though, I thought about cancelling it. But, it would be bad since he came here just to see me. He landed early and by that time, I was in Hard Rock Cafe so he went straight to see me. "Finally, I got to see your ass here" he said. A small smirk on my face as my response. Then, we ended up at my friend place, Lush Bar. Such a nice place to chill, the music is good, the Macaroni Pizza was "Wallaaaaaa". I ordered a pint of beer and Nasi Goreng Kampung (Not bad). He actually had a good sense of humors. Funny, smart and sneaky at some way. I never thought that we can get along together since he sounds boring all the time haha. But seriously, he such a sweetheart. He did the sweetest things ever. It's been awhile since I go out and had quiet number of drinks. He's a good guy well maybe, we don't know yet. Well, if someone make you laugh pretty hard, the next day you might be falling in love with them. We talked all night talking about shit in life. Hours and hours of talking, guess who is watching us? Faisal!!!! Hahahahah. I don't even know either to laugh or cry... From his face, I can tell... Well, you hurts me long time ago. I may not officially together with this guy but damnnn! That feeling of being able to see your face watching me with a fine ass guy.. That is more than enough for me. With Jeevs holding my hand and play with my hairs the fuck not?!!  Everything just getting better and better. It was a good night indeed. I send him off to the hotel as he had a jetlag and wanted to rest. I rushed myself to meet Cynthia and Ian since I promise to see her in Starbucks. Once I'm done with them, I went home straight and sleep. Hahah he will come back again this month. I don't want to expect things from him. I totally gave up on everything. If it happen, then it happens. If it not, then yeah suck it. Cut the stories short, I enjoyed the night. It been awhile since I stay up late with someone and having deep conversation.

* I'M SCARED *


I'm scared... I did it again... I don't know where to start but I feels like I'm losing control every each day.. I don't know where to hold anymore.. I'm scared of everything. I'm scared I might losing everyone in my life. Shane already left me, Cynthia and Ian going back to London in 5 month time. Like seriously, I don't have anyone now. The only place I feel safe is with them. I want to socialize and I want to make friends, but the thing is I'm scared they gonna screw me over AGAIN. The only person I can trust is my own family. There's take a lot to find a true friend. The one who's gonna be there just for you. Well, this is torturing to know that everyone is going to leave me. Tsk.. Tsk.. 

Friday, April 03, 2015

* WHERE DO BROKEN HEART GO *

I know it's been sometime
But there's something on my mind
You see, I haven't been the same
Since that cold November day...
We said we needed space
But all we found was an empty place
And the only thing I learned
Is that I need you desperately..

So here I am
And can you please tell me 
" Where do my broken hearts go? ".
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that's waiting there?
And if somebody loves you
Won't they always love you?
I look at you..
And I know that you still care
For me...

I've been around enough to know 
That dreams don't turn to gold
And that there is no easy way
No, you just can't runaway...
And what we have is so much more
Than we ever had before
And no matter how I try
You're always on my mind..

And now that I am here for you
Wish I'll never let you go
But sadly,
Your at a different arms now
Nothing I can say
But only to wish you 
To be happy with your own choice
Sure she will make you happy..

This is not what I wish,
But taking someone property
Isn't a good thing to proud of
I may be sad
I may be jealous
I may be hates that
But life goes on
And so am I..

I just wanted to see you happy
If you're happy with your choice
And I'm always here to be happy for you
So long, Almost Lover
A Bientot, au revoir..


Thursday, April 02, 2015

* FRANK O'HARA *

        A Step Away From Them Poem by Frank O'Hara


It's my lunch hour, so I go
for a walk among the hum-colored
cabs. First, down the sidewalk
where laborers feed their dirty
glistening torsos sandwiches
and Coca-Cola, with yellow helmets
on. They protect them from falling
bricks, I guess. Then onto the
avenue where skirts are flipping
above heels and blow up over
grates. The sun is hot, but the
cabs stir up the air. I look
at bargains in wristwatches. There
are cats playing in sawdust.

On
to Times Square, where the sign
blows smoke over my head, and higher
the waterfall pours lightly. A
Negro stands in a doorway with a
toothpick, languorously agitating
A blonde chorus girl clicks: he
smiles and rubs his chin. Everything
suddenly honks: it is 12:40 of
a Thursday.

Neon in daylight is a
great pleasure, as Edwin Denby would
write, as are light bulbs in daylight.
I stop for a cheeseburger at JULIET'S
CORNER. Giulietta Maina, wife of
Federico Fellini, é bell' attrice.
And chocolate malted. A lady in
foxes on such a day puts her poodle
in a cab.

There are several Puerto
Ricans on the avenue today, which
makes it beautiful and warm. First
Bunny died, then John Latouche,
then Jackson Pollock. But is the
earth as full of life was full, of them?
And one has eaten and one walks,
past the magazines with nudes
and the posters for BULLFIGHT and
the Manhatten Storage Warehouse,
which they'll soon tear down. I
used to think they had the Armory
Show there.

A glass of papaya juice
and back to work. My heart is in my
pocket, it is Poems by Pierre Reverdy.