Hello guys, wow I haven't write anything yet since yesterday. Was busy spending my quality time with the greatest people. Since this is my last month on giving up on everything. I feels like I just want to concerntrate to my future now. Just wanna do good thing and make myself proud later. It's worth the effort, right? If you want something, you have to work hard on it. So yeah
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This is the some part that I do yesterday. Spending time with my family and going to dinner. Well, the date has been made and I'm going to leave the town. I'm so gonna miss you guys, especially my parent. I couldn't imagine how my life can be without you both. You took a good care of me for almost 22 years now. You teach me how to be a good person, you never miss praying for my happiness and my health everyday, there's too much thing you do for me and I can't thank much for it. Thank you for standing by me through thick and thin, for not giving up on me when I didn't win, for your patience when I kept pushing you away, for caring when I said I didn't need you anyway. I am grateful knowing I can count on your strength, ask for your support and know you'll go to any length when I lose my way, you help me get back on track when in pain, your comfort soothes and brings me back. Im lucky to have you as my parent because when I was sad you gave me faith and hope. When I was confused you taught me how to cope, when I felt I couldn't go on, you carried me long miles when I didn't believe and you restored my smiles. Mom x dad, thank you for your guidance and the faith you've shown. For giving me a safe place where I have grown and for showing me how to strive because of your love, I will survive. I'm promise I will make you happy one day. Amin
Oh well, we are at this topic again! Accurate? Well yes, all people was asking me. How I can move on too past? I was too down and then few days later, I can be like what I used to. I don't keep any secret, it just my nature. If I know that someone don't want me anymore and hurt me that much, I'm just gonna throw everything and never look back again. What's the point of wanting someone who doesn't want you? You don't get anything. Plus, you're torturing yourself. So, it just better to let go. If he want you, he surely make an effort to do something about it. Example me, he once said that he really want me okay? But he never make an effort to do so. He just leave you there hanging with no text and stuff but still giving you hope. Can you imagine that? So, it pointless. No matter how hard you try you'll never get him. The promise and the decision I've made? Just screw them all. There's no point of bringing this all up. Thank God I get my head fix. So my best advice, don't chase someone you can't have, just appreciate someone who chase you. Who knows they can make a world to you. I can't promise you that but just lets hope for the best and that's what I'm doing now. Giving a chance to someone who appreciates me :)
